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Monday, December 31st, 2007
5:53 pm	Farewell Noah When it comes to Christmas a lot of people have a lot to say about it. Either way, I don't really care. December 25 has been a special day to the people around the world for a long time for reasons most people will never understand. So aeons before the public celebration of Dies Natalis Invicti Solis of the Romans which was itself later co-opted by Christians and turned into what we know to be as Christmas. So I've never had a problem celebrating Christmas and never will. In fact when it comes to Christmas I generally immerse myself in the 'festive' spirit. December 25, 2007 however will forever go down as a day in which a little of whatever magic Christmas day has held for me away. My best friend over the past ten years passed on. He was smart, he was loyal, and he was loving. He was my dog. As I've grown progressively older over the past ten years, as anyone else would, I've done some reflecting. As a result of that reflecting I've come to some conclusions. Some of which include regrets. There are many little regrets I've had. Some more so than others. One of the larger regrets, perhaps the most significant, is that I wish I had more friends sometimes. Not people I am acquainted with, not people I say hi to, or drop the occasional e-mail, phone call or card to, but real friends. But I've never cozied up easily to people and people have never easily cozied up to me. I am as particular with people whom I choose to associate with as it seems they are with me. I sometimes wish it weren't that way. Nevertheless I would always shrug off this regret as something that may remedy itself in the future in someway and not as important since I did have such unconditional friendship with my dog. For ten years he has always been there. And there has been a lot that's gone on in the past ten years. And again, over the past ten years the Christmas season has always been a time where not only I would get into the spirit - but my entire family would. I think this was something Noah picked up on himself. He was smarter than most dogs, and very much a people dog, meaning that I think he understood people. Specifically, he understood us. I cannot shake the idea out of my head that something caused Noah to hold out as long as he could, to spare us our Christmas season enjoyment. We got to share one last Christmas morning together, with him, as was always his favorite spot, situated in between everyone - spending his time around us all, everyone reunited for the holidays, as he always seemed to prefer it. So as we exchanged our gifts that morning, his last morning, he lay there gnawing away, enjoying his doggie treats which Santa had left him; and when he was done with those, he just lay enjoying us enjoying each other. That will be my last fond memory of him. Everything after I will spend all of my life trying not to remember. Had I known Noah was as sick as he turned out to be, I would have wanted to have him put down long ago rather than to see him suffer the way he did that late afternoon. He was too good of a dog to have had to have gone through that, and the fact that I wasn't as expedient with his health earlier will now go down as another regret, a big one. The only good sliver of a silver lining in the whole mess, was that he was with the four of us, my brothers and my sister when he finally passed on. I'm sure if he had an opportunity to choose how he could have gone, that would have been part of the equation. Unfortunately however, we were all in an SUV racing to the animal hospital, which was amazingly still open on a rapidly expiring Christmas. I knew he was gone as my brothers and I carried him on the makeshift stretcher from the car into the examination room. It didn't take long for the vet to confirm. The shock came to my two brothers, who were in the front seat of the SUV - I think they were still holding out hope. I don't think it's overstating it at all, for me to say that at 28-and-a-half years of age, I have lived far too long to have witnessed the way he died - The way it seemed like his body systematically shut down from the backside forward. As he was laying on the floor for the last time, he would still try to get up - but it was as if his back legs were no longer there. The way he howled as we were trying to wrap him up to get him to the hospital, and the way he seized in silence on the back of the car taking him on his last ride - not to a dog like he. Tomorrow will be January 1, 2008 will mark the beginning of a new year. It will be the first one since 1996 that I will not share with my best friend. Tomorrow will also make it a week now since Noah left, and still the grief seems to near and the place seems too empty without him. I still find myself leaving some scraps of whatever I'm eating to leave for his dish. When I'm getting up from the sofa I still feel like he will always be sitting right under me, which for a long time always seemed like a nuisance, to have him just laying under you when you'd want to get up to leave, that was just how he was. He always wanted to be near someone. He was a people dog. I would give almost anything to be nuissanced like that again now. And I can't even look at another piece of American cheese - always his favorite. As for his toys which I know are still scattered about the yard, I am hoping for a long winter lasting snowfall to come and cover them for the season. Come springtime, I'm confident enough then that I'll be able to go out and pick them up and pack them away for good. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 20th, 2007
3:51 am	As living information, the plasmate travels up the optic nerve of a human to the pineal body. It uses the human brain as a female host in which to replicate itself into its active form. This is an interspecies symbol. The Hermetic alchemists knew of it in theory from ancient texts, but could not duplicate it, since they could not locate the dormant buried plasmate. Bruno suspected that the plasmate had been destroyed by the Empire. Hinting at this he was burned. "The Empire never ended." (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 8th, 2007
2:39 am	It's so beautiful up here (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
12:46 am	I was going to the worst place in the world, and didn't even know it I cannot take the orthodoxies of the world any longer - even the atheists! What exactly is it that I mean when I say orthdoxy? simple: fundamentalism. Atheism is just another fundamental religion - like it or not, Despite what an atheist may want to tell you. You can be any religion you want, including atheist, but at least realize that in fact atheism is no different than Christianity, Judaism, Islam and anything else you want to include in that. Religion. It comes from the Latin: Religio. Which means to come together. In the right context, it means joining the human state with something higher and/or even sublime. Sadly, extreme theism and now atheism have married the human state with an imperfect image - which is nothing more than a reflection of the lower mundane world. The true zealots of either side will never admit that they are doign this. And the orthodox atheists will try and get off by saying they don't believe in religion, only what humans can decode. But it makes no difference. We can fly to the moon, but we can't even synchronize the lights in our suburbs and cities. We can live longer so that we can be unhappier for a longer period. Is anyone aware of what the term utopia even means? and where it came from? The study of word origins is a whole interesting topic - those who look into it will find a whole new world awaiting them. Utopia is Greek, it means NO WHERE. Just in our imaginations. Theists AND Atheists need to stop projecting their utopia on others. An atheist is just a Christian who believes in one less God. A Christian is just an atheist who believes in one more God. It's simple mathematics. Somewhere between Jehovah and the personal ego, some sort of cosmic evil is laughing its head off. Just because a wheel is squeaking doesn't mean it's having an orgasm. Logic and science, the ultimate expressions of mankind right? Ah, just look at this wonderful world if you don't believe me. Life's a bowl of cherries and this is the pits. Look at the results of 19th century rationalism: the 20th century and its carnage. Look at the ungodly works of Hitler, Mao, Roosevelt, Stalin, Polk, Truman and all the rest. The difference between the Gnostic and the the orthodox theist or atheist is subtle - but striking. It is that one is trapped in his own miasma, and the other free. The Gnostic travels as one searching the truth. The other one has sold himself out for a negative leap pf faith in a fortress he calls human reason or faith. Depending on their predilection. It is said that the Oracle at Delphiu proclaims Socrates as the wisest man who ever lived. Why? Because he admitted that he didn't know anything. Socrates did what Sophia did after she gave birth to the Demiurge Jehovah - he embraced that rare moment of humility - that moment when you don't know a damn thing (some people should learn from that), but ready to try the next thing that comes in the now. In ancient Greece it was known as the 'turning point'. I've never met an orthodox atheist whose done this. They have an answer for everything. They are like preachers on the pulpit on Sunday. There is no difference. Why? Because like all extremist religions, he or she has built a gauntlet of apologetics and dogmatic ideas that ever let him take a risk. The material tomb of creation. Extremism of any kind is an Icarus that flies to close to the sun, except when this vermin falls it falls in a place of self righteousness where the innocent lay. The extremist, or literalists, are so full of cold mercury fluid-like pride, so self-important on his soapbox of delusions, particualr when they feel safe amnogst their numbers. They will go to any lengths to vanquish anyone who shows a flare or hope of liberation. Does anybody talk about transformation anymore? Of course not. Because that's what takes guts and passions. Not dogmas of religion. That takes indivdualism and true character. And that is really the most fun anyone can ever have. But for the extremists?...nnnahhhh, it's all about destroying, taking back, putting down, eliminating, winning, being right, and making sure others know it. How insecure, infantile and fucking boring. Who was behind the heightening of the human condition? It was the esotericists. Not the atheists. More than anyone it was the knowers. Not the failures to know. It was the part of us that fell asleep after the godly-self went mad by losing its wisdom. Maybe I'm a lone voice in the leftist leaning world. Maybe the whole world in general. But give me quality over quantity. I'm never trying to convert or preach to anyone. All I do at most is try to remind us of who we were before we lost our lucid awe to the universe. So, like an old Spanish saying goes: "You don't walk upon a path - you make a path with your footsteps." Being right never brought that person back after your last talk over coffee, or when the casket closed, or when the phone clicked off once upon a time. Some of you have just hardened so much that you refuse to take a look at what really went wrong. Understand though that you are not alone. In the end, your master and mine is Socrates - who admitted that he really didn't know a damn thing. When that happens maybe then you can access Sophia and begin gliding toward the Sun of Awareness. A dog lives a good life, but it's still the life of a dog. Isn't it time we begin living the life of the gods instead of worshipping them or denying their existance? If you were to ask me, I'd say yes, I'm a Gnostic (as opposed to agnostic). But tomorrow I will be something else if needed be. Change isn't good or bad, it's necessary. Change is just like existance, it just is - and that's enough. It's everywhere all of you athesists who cling to Marx like a lost refugee in his dingy, or a deist who clutches his crystalized volume of Thomas Aquinas like a bottle in a brown bag. I think the Gospel of Thomas said: Be passer byers, and that is the keynote to a meaningful life. But as for you Gnostics, I'm not done with you either. A lot of you need a lot more sleep and less sugar in your coffee. Most of you neo-Gnostics have no edge, no laughing spirit, no inner-Buddha, no cynical tradition, yet still claim to know that we are trapped in the flawed world of the Demiurge :::SIGH::: Sadly most of you like the label Gnostic so you can be morally ambivalent, or the life of a cocktail party. But I'm getting ahead of myself. One or two extremisms at a time. My rant is over. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
10:18 pm	In dormant seed form, the plasmate slumbered in the buried library of codices at Chenobskion until 1945 C.E. this is what Jesus meant when he spoke elliptically of the "mustard seed" which, he said, "would grow into a tree large enough for birds to roost in." He foresaw now only his own death but that of all homoplasmates. He foresaw the codices unearthed, read, and the plasmate seeking out new human hosts to crossbond with; but he foresaw the absence of the plasmate for almost 2,000 years. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 14th, 2006
12:39 am	The plasmate can crossbond with a human, creating what I call a homoplasmate. This annexes the mortal human permanently to the plasmate. We know this as the "birth from above" or "birth from the Spirit." It was initiated by the Christ, but the Empire destroyed all the homoplasmates before they could replicate. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 13th, 2006
12:09 am	I would term the Immortal one a plasmate, because it is a form of energy; it is living information. It replicates itself - not through information or in information - but AS information. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
12:28 am	The Rose + Cross Brotherhood wrote, "Ex Deo nascimur, in Jesu mortimur, per spiritum sanctum reviviscimus," which is to say, "From God we are born, in Jesus we die, by the Holy Spirit we live again." This signifies that they had rediscovered the lost formula for immortality which the Empire had destroyed. "The Empire never ended." (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
4:26 pm	Hermetic alchemists knew of the secret race of the 'three-eyed invaders' but despite their efforts could not contact them. Therefore their efforts to support Frederic V, Elector Palatine; King of Bohemia; and Holy Roman Emperor, failed. "The Empire Never Ended." (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
6:39 pm	The two-word cypher signal KING FELIX was not intended for human beings but for the descendents of Ikhnaton, the 'three-eyed' race which, in secret, exists with us. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 9th, 2006
8:04 pm	Real time ceased in 70 C.E. with the fall of the temple at Jerusalem. It began again in 1974 C.E. The intervening period was a perfect spurious interpolation aping the creation of the Mind. "The Empire never ended," but in 1974 a cypher was sent out as a signal that the Age of iron was over; the cypher consisted of two words: KING FELIX, which refers to the Happy (or Rightful) King. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 8th, 2006
2:05 am	The Gnostics believed in two temporal ages: the first or present evil; the second or future benign. The first age was the Age of Iron. It is represented by a Black Iron Prison. Some say it ended in 1974 and was replaced by the Age of Gold, which is represented by a Palm Tree Garden; but it didn't. It is still here. The Empire never ended; and the prison still stands. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 7th, 2006
3:02 am	Sibyl said in March 1974, "The conspirators have been seen and they will be brought to justice." She saw them with the third or ajna eye, the Eye of Shiva which gives inward discernment, but which when turned outward blasts with desiccating heat. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 6th, 2006
12:03 am	Sibyl, of Cumae, protected the Roman Republic and gave timely warning. In the first century C.E. she foresaw the murders of Dr. Martin L. King; John Lennon; Gandhi; and Bishop Pike. She saw the two common denominators in the four murdered men: first, they stood in defense of the liberties of the Republic; and second, each man was a religious leader. For this they were killed. The Republic had once again become an empire with a caesar. "The Empire never ended." (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 5th, 2006
12:46 am	The universe is information and we are stationary in it, not three-dimensional and not in space or time. The information fed to us we hypostatize into the phenomenal world. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
3:55 pm	Pascal said, "All history is one immortal man who continually learns." This is the Immortal One whom we worship without knowing his name. "He lived a long time ago, but he is still alive," and, "The Head Apollo is about to return." The name changes. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
1:14 am	The Immortal One was known to the Greeks as Dionysos; to the Jews as Elijah; to the Christians as Jesus. He moves on when each human host dies, and thus is never killed or caught. Hence Jesus on the cross said, "Eli, Eli, lama Sabachthani," to which some of those present correctly said, "The man is calling on Elijah." Elijah had left him and he died alone. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
12:42 am	The great secret known to Apollonius of Tyana; Paul of Tarsus; Simon Magus; Asklepios; Paracelsus; Boehme; and Bruno is that we are moving backwards in time. The universe in fact is contracting into a unitary entity which is completing itself. Decay and disorder are seen by us in reverse, as increasing. These healers learned to move forward in time, which is retrograde to us. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
12:50 am	Apollonius of Tyana, writing as Hermes Trismegistos, said, "That which is above is that which is below." By this he meant to tell us that our universe is a hologram, but he lacked the term. (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 30th, 2006
10:49 am	He lived a long time ago; but he is still alive. (Comment on this)